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May 31 busy + hectic?I dont know where i get the time for me to blog now...
so, i m now finding info for Sat evening show...
and later, i am gonna practice singing, and then go bath, and then do my nail polish.. for tomorrow's performance...
and then, write novel and hopefully can do some maths...
and tomorrow morning, i got performance in CHMS, MrQ and YeZi
after that , prepare my friday evening show for a while, and then i have to go rtb until 7, back home, prepare for saturday evening show..
saturday morning , md.
evening, rtb.
sunday afternoon - night, hafta go rtb...
so busy...
i really need a good rest... as in... really really rest...
i miss that kind of life when i can sleep till i wake up, watch tv.. and den dono can do wat, the kind of ''boring life'', really kinda miss it..
din get to rest during the march holiday, coz was busy preparing for 2 big performances in orchid garden...
and this comin holiday.. i already kno how busy i will be...
coz got SOOO MANYYY duties in rtb... 12 times... bu yao kai wan xiao ><
and then holiday hmwk, and singing n dancing performances...
T_T how cum i feel like i m not enjoying this anymore?
this is very enjoyable isnt it, practice dancing, practice singing, go studio on air...
but after i come back home, everyone still blame me...
mother said i neglect my school stuffs... those studies...
and lucifer blamed me for no go kgs and train go with him...
and cupid wing said wo zi zhao de...
i feel very... i dont know
- weak -
can i pengsn now, and wake up 10 days later? May 26 thankx so much!first of all, a big big thank you to michael!! *hugx*
guess wat... just now the rtb rcs is housekeeping.. omg whole pc! i mean one pc two monitor screens cant use!!!
never encounter dis be4 !! i dono wat to do at all T_T worried till wanna cry liaw oo
phone to boss, boss didn ans... omg >< what shud i do?!?!
and then michael was on duty before me, so i keep asking him ''howwww''
hahaa... don understand =.= he said, i should ask ''why'' instead of ''how'', but its not the time to ask why liaw... it already happened, so HOWW???
afraid till i almost cry already o..
michael managed to find the chinese cart... the weather, tide, jingles and everything all are inside... and then played... kinda like, show me how to do it la..
so hafta do everything manually...
i din put the pilihan main jingle la... coz cant find ><
but at least it went through smoothly...
i feel so proud of myself!! really!!
snif, chiawyee is a brave gal, so proud of chiawyee!!! i m chiawyee~~ mwahahahax
so gandong chiawyee's mum gave birth to her, so proud man! she should feel proud! coz chiawyee is a brave gal!!
i feel so proud of myself!!!
yea, really thankx a lot michael!! althou i kno u wont visit this blogspace, coz i don wanna give ya the link, hahax...
but still.. THANKX
and, thankx to wansien, and chungsun, AND CHEETA~
for supplyin me songs..
but wansien's cd whole disc cant play though ...
dont know, not readable file ><
but still, i feel very gandong like that.. ^^
yea, i love everyone ^^
May 25 live in past不可以活在过去
刚刚我在跟ah lu 说traffic light怎样sweet, 怎样好，然后我就说，“上次。。。”
然后ah lu就无意的问我“是多久以前的事?” 然后，我就。。。突然间好像，醒过来一样。我一直沉醉在以前，我一直没有发现，原来，事情都已经不一样了。
一直用你以前的好，来麻痹我自己。有什么意义呢？我应该要认清楚，过了，就是过了，不是你的，就不是你的。
不管他以前对你有多好，现在，你们只是朋友，所以，你们就只是朋友。一直活在以前，一直给自己遐想的空间，有什么用呢？只是换来无数次的失望，痛心而已。
我真得很想你。。。
想那个以前的你，我只能回味，回忆，但是不可以再把以前的你，在当成现在的你了。
sigh...
我的mr.perfect在哪里呢？
“我相信，总有一天，我一定会遇见他。”
我最完美的你。 wierd feelin Lol, just now was at Lu's hse, Caiyen and Yenlu teaching me irony dance steps...
dance dance dance...
rest...
den suddenly think of soonwing...
lol, wierd
till now still feel wierd wierd de.
like... something stuck in my heart, cant breathe...
wat happened kan?! don tell me he died already ><
omggg =.= *xiang tai duo*
lol, mayb i m jus thinking too much ba.
anything bad happened to him kan? >< but my instinct very zhun de worrr...
omg T_T *worried*
what the hell =.= jus suddenly think of someone, very common =.= ntg much ntg much
arghhhh
=( May 19 we rock~KEK DAO =.= stupid ... what did i do? >< hafta rewrite everything
but nvm! hahaha
jus now i had a really enjoyable and memorable performance...
me and ruzanna *both female djs of pilihan fm* and zain and dean*both male djs of pelangi fm* , we duet
singing maroon 5's - she will be loved
den lerrr.... we din really practice o... coz we just met each other yesterday ? hahaha
and then zain din show up for the rehearsal yesterday night, but he did came for the rehearsal yesterday evening.
so , basically we din really practice together...
jus now before we went up stage, we were like, discussin whether we shud have a bit of eye contact...
den yea ''a bit eye contact'' is importnt...
*althou we don really kno each other?*
ok... when we were on stage...
haha, not only A BIT eye contact o...
haha me and zain were like, sticking together throughout the song, and ruzanna wid dean.
(oh ya, i am a chinese, dean is an indian, ruzanna and zain are malays)
for wansien's information, zain hen shuai o :P i mean not bad
hahaha ok back to the story....
first time i can duet wid guys so naturally, hes like, looking into my eyes, and me too, and i din burst out laughing! hahaha
me and kah hao last time, i keep laughing whenever we dui wang...
dono why this time i din laugh.... hahax yay~ but its good
mayb becoz he too shen qing liaw la, so i find it bu hao xiao ? or mayb we don really kno each other so nvm ?
whoot~ so sweet~ hahahax you xin dong de gan jue *i mean oni on stage*
got that type of ''feel''
and then during dean's part, mayb he kinda forgot the lyrics or something, he went beside me, and then after finishing his parts, he knelt down!! hahahax
but i still act naturally la :p
i m not sure if ''she will be loved'' is a love song o not >< but me and zain , we did it like a luv song ><
not sure bout dean and ruzanna >< hahahax
heard that dey made a lot of eye contacts also
bu zhi dao de ren hai yi wei wo men hen shu, actually its just the 2nd time i meet with zain. lol
NICE PERFORMANCE~ ALTHOU ITS NOT THE BEST SONG... BUT WHOOT~ hahaha if got chance, duetin wid him shud be good :p at least i wont laugh out, but too bad hes a malay, cant sing chinese *bei dian dao* =.= on stage oni=p May 17 busy busy lifeCan you believe it? I just finished showering , and just reached home not till half an hour ago...
=.=
Today's old plan : Schooling, after that, meet tingting ,and then go rizqun hotel to rehearse my songs... and then aerobics, at night go out wid cupid wing... busy, but nice thursday.
then... something happened =.=
so the arranged schedule will be : schooling, after that ,meet tingting, then go rizqun hotel to rehease the songs, and then follow pikshien's hse to li jing's hse to celebrate her son's one month day? =.= dont knw what u call that in english la...
is this the final schedule? NO
=.= things all happened all of a sudden, and guess how i spent my thursday ?
schooling, after that , met tingting, then went shopping for a while, with shien and lu, and then, i went aerobics class...after that, followed lu's car to mara*smth* cafe, close to mamih nearby supa save... to meet up those djs. they wanted to discuss something together, but i reached early, so lu acc me to a shop that sells spore imported shirts... and then, i wanted to pretend to try out a shirt, and then to comb my hair and everything one, sekali i used all lu's money to buy a really cute outfit >< hahahax... >< sorry lu!
and then , went to meet the djs... and then... after the meeting, i went straight to rtb, for the rehearsal....waited and waited until now, my partner did not show up, so, yea, i went home...
>< busy =.= shit. do i enjoy my life? erm, till now still ok, coz i havn start doing my hmwk, cant feel the ''pressure'' yet. i really need a perfect bf to help me do hmwk laa T_T no no =.= i mean , help me wid my hmwks, lol, at least, force me to do or smth...
compare to doin hmwk, singing, dancing, talking . meeting, shopping, all much funner >< hahaax
---------------------- yea... and then someone just told me something =.= sigh, hafta delay again... SHIT
ohya, i will be busy tomorrow too..planning to study and finish all my hmwks, *if i can* , and then 3pm i will go to rizqun hotel for the full dress rehearsal, bt i m not gna wear full dress though. and then... after that, mayb hang out with someone? depends if theres anyone willing to be my sparetyre :p hahahax i kno there are a lot queueing :p
and then 8pm is another full dress rehearsal =.=
yea, busy busy friday
and saturday, tht performance day
sunday = on air day
monday = at night go rtb, to meet those dj, and we will do something >< hahahax sorry its confidential,a fter that they gna go out lim teh.... not sure if i can follow, coz i got class on tues ><
=.= my maths hmwk due monday, A LOT OF QUESTIONS TO DO, and i haven started *prepare a rope, in case i couldnt cope, i m gna commit suicide*
and this time, chiawyee very clever already!! shes gna bring the ''qian nian ai'' along with her 24/7 , so she can write when shes free :p so wansien doesn have to wait! hahahax whoot~
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lol, even friendship doesn last long? sigh...
whats wrong lerrr... not like i did something wrong... i am sure i did not, so i m not gna give in no matter what, even if it means that we can never be ''that close'' anymore, i am not gna give in, coz i m not wrong, not gna act like last time, so stupid, cry cry cry...
please la, chiawyee is adorable, hmpf, many ppl luv her, even she doesn treat her well, someone else will!
i have many ppl around me, i dont need ''specific'' someone, if she doesnt want me!
anyway i did nothing wrong...
busy busy lifeCan you believe it? I just finished showering , and just reached home not till half an hour ago...
=.=
Today's old plan : Schooling, after that, meet tingting ,and then go rizqun hotel to rehearse my songs... and then aerobics, at night go out wid cupid wing... busy, but nice thursday.
then... something happened =.=
so the arranged schedule will be : schooling, after that ,meet tingting, then go rizqun hotel to rehease the songs, and then follow pikshien's hse to li jing's hse to celebrate her son's one month day? =.= dont knw what u call that in english la...
is this the final schedule? NO
=.= things all happened all of a sudden, and guess how i spent my thursday ?
schooling, after that , met tingting, then went shopping for a while, with shien and lu, and then, i went aerobics class...after that, followed lu's car to mara*smth* cafe, close to mamih nearby supa save... to meet up those djs. they wanted to discuss something together, but i reached early, so lu acc me to a shop that sells spore imported shirts... and then, i wanted to pretend to try out a shirt, and then to comb my hair and everything one, sekali i used all lu's money to buy a really cute outfit >< hahahax... >< sorry lu!
and then , went to meet the djs... and then... after the meeting, i went straight to rtb, for the rehearsal....waited and waited until now, my partner did not show up, so, yea, i went home...
>< busy =.= shit. do i enjoy my life? erm, till now still ok, coz i havn start doing my hmwk, cant feel the ''pressure'' yet. i really need a perfect bf to help me do hmwk laa T_T no no =.= i mean , help me wid my hmwks, lol, at least, force me to do or smth...
compare to doin hmwk, singing, dancing, talking . meeting, shopping, all much funner >< hahaax
---------------------- yea... and then someone just told me something =.= sigh, hafta delay again... SHIT
ohya, i will be busy tomorrow too..planning to study and finish all my hmwks, *if i can* , and then 3pm i will go to rizqun hotel for the full dress rehearsal, bt i m not gna wear full dress though. and then... after that, mayb hang out with someone? depends if theres anyone willing to be my sparetyre :p hahahax i kno there are a lot queueing :p
and then 8pm is another full dress rehearsal =.=
yea, busy busy friday
and saturday, tht performance day
sunday = on air day
monday = at night go rtb, to meet those dj, and we will do something >< hahahax sorry its confidential,a fter that they gna go out lim teh.... not sure if i can follow, coz i got class on tues ><
=.= my maths hmwk due monday, A LOT OF QUESTIONS TO DO, and i haven started *prepare a rope, in case i couldnt cope, i m gna commit suicide*
and this time, chiawyee very clever already!! shes gna bring the ''qian nian ai'' along with her 24/7 , so she can write when shes free :p so wansien doesn have to wait! hahahax whoot~
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lol, even friendship doesn last long? sigh...
whats wrong lerrr... not like i did something wrong... i am sure i did not, so i m not gna give in no matter what, even if it means that we can never be ''that close'' anymore, i am not gna give in, coz i m not wrong, not gna act like last time, so stupid, cry cry cry...
please la, chiawyee is adorable, hmpf, many ppl luv her, even she doesn treat her well, someone else will!
i have many ppl around me, i dont need ''specific'' someone, if she doesnt want me!
anyway i did nothing wrong...
May 15 how busy i m now + how busy will i belol...
today = do acct hmwk, maths hmwk, ASL hmwk*endless*, memorise the rhythm of ''she will be loved''
tomorrow = prepare for acct test the day after, memorise lyrics of ''she will be loved'',prepare rtb stuffs, endless ASL hmwks, accts hmwk, maths hmwk*due monday*
thursday = aerobics, singing practice in rizqun hotel...meet tingting, homeworks, rtb stufffs...
friday = free? no no no... maths hmwk due monday remember? SOOOO MANY PAPERS TO DO!!, and dancing practice, mayb. singing practice... rizqun singing practice...
everyday is full of hmwks...
seems like nothing much right.. =.= but put urself in my shoes, den u will kno...
plenty of time? can man man lai ? nonono...
anyway i m gna start working hard soon, i mean, i am already working really hard... but if i have got the time, isure will start memorising my ASL quotes, and also do some maths and accounts... and eco also... mcqs... >< i have AS this year nov lerrr T_T but ... i am so not free T_T May 13 afraid“不用怕，如果发生什么事，我都会一直在你身边的。绝对不会让坏事发生在你身上。你愿意相信我吗？”
“我一定会永远保护你。。。”
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HAPPY BDAE TO WING~~~ CUPID WING ~~~
HAPPY BDAE~~~
*HOPE U CAN HAVE A GOOD GF SOON :P CARING ONE, PERFECT ONE, SLIM ONE, KE AI KE AI ONE, HEART GOOD GOOD ONE :P''
HAHAX May 09 where is my maths notebook?!T_T where is my maths notebook?
MPR test is tomorrow... >< and now, i cant even find my notebook!! *slowly turning into caiyen* dieeee
arghhh did i leave it arr...
is it on the desk behind my seat? >< i dont knowww
how can i forget to bringi t back ?
if its really there, will ppl throw it ?
T_T
then i have to recopy everthing? T_T
i donwannnnnnnn
arghhhh >< hope i still can score an A for the MPR tomorrow T_T i don know differentiation and integration arrrr ><
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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he blocked me? or we don have fate? lol, like so many days din see him online le... no face see me eh ?
suan le , not important....
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and, congratz to zeing!!!! ^^
phew* xing hao you jing wu xian...
i kno u can do it :p
i dont believe you cant enter semi final~~
and see?? :p
must believe urselff~~~~~
looking forward to listen to your 'tong che xin fei ' soon~
whoot~~~~~~~~ CONGRATZ ZEINGGGG
*really happy, dont know why* hahahx ><
you can enter final de!!! hahahax even my dad believes ^^
May 07 perfect = not perfectSo... i finally see his true face...
hm... at first, really really disgusted... coz... he fooled me.
but.... i found''something''.... i read... hmm >< hes quite ke lian de
i dont know, i think he still stands a chance, despite that he lied to me...
but, ofcoz hes no longer my mr.perfect....
but, we are still friends ^^
.....
and is he trying to ... keep a distance away from me now? i dont knw, mayb i m thinking too much...
its like long long long long time since i last chatted with him le...
sigh.
theres really no perfect guy on earth ?
i dont believe T_T
mayb i should feel happy... if gods really do exist, mayb this is the path that they chose for me... hes not the right guy... so now, god is showing to me that hes really not a right guy for me.
god is making everything clear...
lol=.= why everything bout gods? i don know...
but ... i am in life's low tide these few days.... i was in really high tide last few days >< when i just know my mr . perfect..
lol, back to low tide...
i also dont know how to elaborate here... dont know exactly how many ppl are viewin my blogs...
i dont know... sometimes feel like wanna set my blog to private... but i am too vain to do so...
argh.
everything has their pros and cons. =.= quoted by edwn..
i miss my chms life...
everyday wid angie... wansien.... its like... everyday no hmwks.. go home online... dono do wat argh last year..
and now, i rarely talk with angie, coz cant see her... and wansien T_T kinda miss her...
now that i realise... like... when i feel like wanna phone someone, i dont know who to phone... this is a really sad thing...
i want a bf... i want a bf...i want a bf...
if only i can be satisfied easily...
but i am searchin for a perfect guy...
lol, where got so many perfect guys de... .
should i really go simply find anyone?
i kno i cant, even if i want, i cant do it.. my brain just wont let me do so... i m a perfectionist...
i want someone to be here for me... i really feel very alone...
May 05 project superstarcomgrats to henley for winning the project superstar'07!!
hahaha... although jus now *final round* was the first time that i watch this year =.= coz i keep missing it =.=
but still, compare to the girl, henley's wu tai mei li is better... and the girl,mayb is not in a good condition gua.. like, not really serious, and also, i dont know.. don think she can be female top de lo, if this is the normal her.
and i think henley's mic volume too low le ler.r.. >< like cant hear his voice clealy like that =.=
wu tai mei li really very important!! hes sooo damn attractive arr!!! omg~
CONGRATZ ONCE AGAIN!
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lol, things are getting more and more complicated, and i seriously dont know what i am doing nymore....
why like this? i dont know...
from now on... i wont do stuffs like this again, lol.
Chiaw yee is not like this de...
this is not chiawyee...
i will just see wht will happen, coz even if i keep thinking bout it, i still cant change anything ryte?
thankx caiyen >< hahahax
and thankx ahlu and shien for listening to my stupid stories >< and tat pikshien arr still acc me ki siao =.= so ke ai =.=
lol!
because of something that he said, something that he did... i cant sleep for whole night..
keep thinking this and that, keep predicting, and make silly assumption, trying to know where i should head to , what i should do....
but , i know... i know this is not the correct way...
and i can feel that i m turning into the ''blind chiawyee'' again.. which i seriously dont want to.
you are nothing to me.... NOTHING
without you, i still got others, still got long queue waitin for me to choose, jus that i dont want...
but , i wont want u also, unless u want me first.
lol.
its just so hard to find someone perfect...
''believe yourself, that guy you are seeking for does exist ... you will find him one day, its just not the right time yet. both of you belong to each other...''
yes... May 01 you and mejus now was practicing ting hai, still the same old good... A2
and i tried gan lan shu jst now... lol, original key was too low to me... so i higher 2 keys... den hai hao la... but my voice came out clear and sweet.. when i was admiring my own voice while singing, my dad praised me as well...
he asked me to try higher 2 more keys, so all together 4 keys ... lol still can sing, but hai hao la...
i guess my key for gan lan shu is higher 3 keys? lol.
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jus now was in a really good mood, now had a mood swing... dont know what happened... sigh*
now that i know, you are really perfect... but you are not mine, sigh.
i dont know what should i react, how should i respond...seems like ... i never think from your side...
If ... i put myself in your shoes... lol, what else can you do...
suan le ba...
wo yi ge ren chi fan lv xing dao chu zou zou ting ting, ye yi ge ren kan shu xie xin zi ji dui hua tan qing...
zhi shi xin you piao dao le na li... jiu lian zi ji kan ye kan bu qing, wo xiang wo bu jin jin shi shi qu ni... jia zhuang duo hao wo zhi yao zhi xiang yao zai yong you yi miao, qu xiang xin ni de yong bao, yi zhi hui rang wo yi kao.... |
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