Although you owes hurt me... owes make me feel really really sad...

 

But.. you tend to brighten up my life also...

 

=.=

 

Lol... actually you have a warm heart, but why do you have to treat me so coldly =.=

 

Glad i still can feel that warm heart, if not, wo jiu cuo guai ni le...

 

Thanks for everything you did... every sacrifices you made... every bao rong... and kuan rong...

 

Forgive me everytime, make the first move everytime...

 

Although you insist you are not consoling me, but i still feel better after chatting with you when i feel helpless and hopeless...

 

So everything when i feel really afraid... or helpless.. i will think of tou kao u... go to u... and everything will be fine...

 

Why do you give me such a feeling that i can rely on you?

 

How do you give me this feeling?

 

But you know... sometimes, when i m really tired... i really cant cheng shou any of your strong words toward me...

 

I am too emotional...? Maybe.

 

The YOU before... will never scold me de, owes very tender...

 

until dont know how.. and dont know why...

 

our relationship changes...

 

now... you always hurt me... mayb you dont know?

 

But... after the ''pain'', i will sense ur warmth again...

 

this is killing me u kno... i cant stand it anymore T_T

 

Owes... when i ask you something... you treat me so coldly... so coldly... and when i turn to others for help, you will scold me again...

 

And after everyone failed, you are the one who picks up all the burden and solve everything.

 

Wu yuan wu hui de solving...

 

why...?

 

Maybe we are both too emotional, too easily heart, too soft-hearted?

 

Wei shen me wo men yao zhe yang shang hai bi ci...

 

Wei shen me zai shen shen shang hai zhi hou you yao qu zai hu?

 

Thankx... really.

lol,before valentines day... i dreamt of u again ^^ ... kek tio

 

I dreamt two u.. =.= > <

 

how to say two you leR... first its.. u.. and *the guy.. who was suppose to be chopped during the first episode* haha... and then...

 

lets name the u, number 2.. and the guy whose head was suppose to be chopped number 1

 

what were i doin ar... lemme recall...

 

my mum n sis were beside.. n then.. dont know why... i gu yi... like.. jie jin number2.. althou i m together wid number1... and den so on so on..

 

dennn... ur hand start to luan lai =.= dont know what u did on my shoulder o wat.. den i said..''ei,你的手在做什么？''

 

n den u very innocent de 帮我乔内衣带... oklo =.= wat can i say =.=

 

hm.. n den i forgot wat else.. hahahax...

 

it was a sweet dream ^^

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i went to cut my hair... now i look like wansien :p hahahax... nola =.= hai hao.

 

not sure if this hairstyle suits me o not T_T

 

but nvm.. i m going to change another hairstyle once my hair is long enough to cut ^^

 

although i reached at 3.15, still very very rush arrrr....

 

first i changed my ic.. for a temporary pass...

 

then i went to the chinese department, and met cen jun... chey.. shes a friendly gal la...

 

and then.. we went down to the studio together...

 

conia was on air... then... cen jun helped me to translate the weather forecast.. and.. dont know how the chinese program started.. so i started to speak speak speak...

 

quite 惊险 one lo... hahhaa... many CLOSED SHAVE ;P hohoho wan wan~~

 

den... yea.. i also dont know how to describe ler..

 

something like... during the azar prayer... and the news live... is the busiest moment.. so.. 2 hands are not enough... for me la.. for them.. coz they were used to it, so ok... =.= so... i almost pengsan... > <

 

luckily cen jun helped me to press everything before i pengsan, i dont have to pengsan =.= wth =.=

 

argh, suan le.. don wana say le... u guys cannot understand de! *eiseh*

 

I went to RTB, met with Cen Jun... the time was already 3.30, fourty-five minutes to live reportin T_T

 

But.. all the mics, the speakers, the microphones, the keyboard, the screen, the monitor, all were arranged messily... so i have to arrange them again...

 

And... i realised that , the mic and headphones... dont know why... no sound came out...

 

I asked Cen Jun.. she said.. wait till she is back from the Frankie Chicken Restaurant and then she will help me. But its already 3.30!!!

 

(Is there any restaurant named Frankie Chicken Restaurant in Brunei? dont know =.=)

 

And then when she came back, it was already 3.45... And she was still chatting with a malay friend...

 

I really dont know what to do... 15 minutes more...where is the flight detail? where is the weather forecast? i dont know how to traslate weather forecast!!!!

 

So... i went to toilet.. it was already 3.55...

 

I saw ''Elementary'' in there =.= i dont know why =.=

 

And i was crying... i think he saw me crying..

 

And then ... got a guy... shot me... =.= with a gun... and something.. blah blah blah... but the elementary din save me =.=

 

okla... this part is not important...

 

back to studip...

 

When i was back in studio, it was already around 6...

 

then.. pengpeng was there, beside me, i was waiting for the song to end, so that i can speak on live...

 

but, there was something wrong with the song... it stucked there... then i said.. '' oh my god!!!'' and quickly replaced the song with another disco song...

 

I was sure that the mic was off that time... but then don know why.. audience still heard the ''oh my god , go die laaaa ''

 

I really dont know what to do... =.= ... > < Why like this...

 

And then... coz it was already almost 6 when i went back right... so i din know where Cen Jun stopped... i din dare to simply say anything... =.=

 

I was waiting for the Israk prayer...

 

Argh.... dont know la... it was a mess... T_T

 

Hope it will not be a mess later...

 

When i woke up just now.. i glanced at the clock.. it was already almost 10... shitt... too late to listen to the starting .... but , i still went to parent's bedroom and brought the radio to my room...

 

When i was trying to tuning... cannot find any chinese program... eiii? wierd... something happened to the studio? or something was wrong with my radio?

 

i glanced at the clock again... 3 minutes to 9...

 

HUH?!?!?

 

klo.. dont know why... =.= so it was 3 minutes to 9...

 

hahaha , managed to catch the starting so i can learn something from it.. phew*

 

lol... hopefully everything will be ok later T_T so ganjiong... i never met with Cen Jun before...

 

dont know if shes friendly or not... T_T i hope her attitude is something like Ping Fan's... Ping Fan is a nice DJ... she doesnt really look very friendly but shes very very friendly....

 

Other than Ping Fan, i knew many dee-jays there too ^^... chinese ones... like... Ming Shen.. Luo Wei... and Mei TIng..

 

English dee-jays like... Michael... Conia...Marilyn...Tina... and so on so on...

 

Hahah... knew some english dee-jays because we sharing the same studio... for live la..

 

so... we have to sit inside first.. so we can take over in time... yea...

 

Michael is a chinese, but his english is good... yea for wansien's information, he looks good too ^^ hahahhax... i think he cant really speak chinese, but he can speak cantonese.. not sure bout that..

 

Conia.. shes a very young girl...but ofcoz i m younger la... she can speak chinese, but she doesn look like a chinese... so mayb... she is a chinese mixed indian... not sure bout that...

 

marilyn is a chinese ... and Tina is a .... malay or philipino? i dont know =.= > <

 

Is it wrong to reveal their personalities? oopx... >< anyway dey wont see this so nvm :p

 

I have been wanting to meet with Frankie... coz.. he is one of the most popular, most famous english Dee-Jay... and.. i saw lots of articles bout him also... but never met him before coz he was in Singapore... heard so =.=

 

But... that day i went to studio ryte... i saw his name in the timetable!! hahaa.. Tuesday morning and 11-1 , wednesday morning and 11-1 ... but too bad i cant go =.=

 

isit wrong to reveal the timetable? don care la =.= > <

 

hahaha... sorry T_T

Went to James Hon for consultant just now...

 

The people there were busy.. .coz lotsa students want them to do their visa for them...

 

And i didnt make appointment before i went... so... the girl told me no one is free ><

 

And...

 

When i was about to leave, a man asked me if i brought my result sheet with me..

 

I nodded and handed him the result sheet.. =.=

 

After scanning through my results =.= his expression changed and asked me to sit down =.=

 

lol... the way he said ''sit down'' kinda made me thought of the dentists.. lol.. dont know why.

 

mayb becoz of that commanding tune ba =.=

 

LOL... and then... he suggested me to go maktab sains instead of maktab duli =.=

 

总之，到最后我还是没有得到很好的答案就是了。真的搞不懂，他一下叫我拿sociology,一下又说economics 会比较好。我想我还是要找一天去问B Lau 的人。

 

After that, i went RTB.

 

FOR TRAINING! and i went to the chinese department office and search for some documents..

 

but then din see any useful documents... SIGH

 

and when i went down to the studio, i told the deejay i m gna start to on air by myself this sunday. Then she straightaway let me on air ><

 

Wahlaueh... the machine is for octopus or spider to use one la... not human =.= 2 hands not enough de >< i made a lot of mistakes.. >< sigh...

 

lalala~ n lalala~

 

i m gna on air again this sunday... 4-7.. omg...4 - 7... i m gna die T_T

LOL!

 

谢谢Robert叔叔！！！

 

Just received a pressie from my uncle... ^^

 

Its an original guess watch ^^ he bought it from Perth international airport...

 

REAL ONE oo... with the warranty book =.= or mayb its 说明书。 O.. no no.. its the ''original cert'' yea yea... ^^

 

haha... =.= he bought me the watch coz he said i did well in my O level =.=

 

klo.. =.= everyone is satisfied with my results.. except me n my mum =.=

 

shitty... why didn i get 7As...

 

太开心了，我一定会一直戴着那只手表的，哈哈，=.=可是其实现在，真的和假的长得都一样。不可能要我随时拿着那个''cert''把？！ =.= wuliao.

 

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I dreamt of him again... we kissed =.= >< *blink*

 

LOL. quite sweet de i guess? coz i dont really remember le...

 

haha, but quite funny also ^^

 

*pink pink*